Category: Diary
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March 5, 2005
Age: 18 years 7 months 7 days Holy cow! I haven’t written in my journal in a month! I know that I have been avoiding it. And I don’t have time. Um, why have I been avoiding writing… It’s because I’m dating redacted. And no, I’m not ashamed of it. I haven’t told redacted or…
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February 6, 2005
Approximately 5:00am Age: 18 years 6 months 8 days Stop, I broke up with redacted about this time one week and a day ago. One week sounds wrong. It feels like a lifetime. I cried last night watching Eternal Sunshine for the Spotless Mind because Jim Carrey looks like redacted in this role. Not one…
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January 30, 2005
Approximately 2:45am Age: 18 years 6 months 1 days I broke up with redacted yesterday. I’m sad. All that I can do is think of the ways to get back together with him. I want to date him, and I want to find some way to make it work. I still don’t feel right about…
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January 28, 2005
Age: 18 years 5 months 30 days God, I love you. Redacted is wrong for me. How long am I going to keep playing this game? It’s not a game though. I like him. Why can’t I fall in love with someone who isn’t a Christian? I don’t want to do this. I don’t want…
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January 27, 2005
Age: 18 years 5 months 29 days Time to participate in this wretched COM class again. and by participate I mean do anything but. So… Fear and Trembling… I read it and I know that I don’t get it. I’m supposed to understand how difficult it is. Why does God ask us to do duties…
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January 24, 2005
Age: 18 years 5 months 26 days Hi God. What can I say? I don’t even know how to talk to you. I am forever distanced. What can I even do? I’m trying to talk to you. It’s miserable. I’ve never stopped believing in you, but I’ve traded faith for reason. How much stronger had…
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January 20, 2005
Age: 18 years, 5 months, 22 days Are you joking? I hate this class. COM 101. Ah. Well, at least I can write. Oooh, I feel sick. These brownies are tasty, but don’t settle well. Blah. I miss having a film class. I love it so much. I just saw redacted working on a film…
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January 18, 2005
12:04am Age: 18 years, 5 months, 20 days It’s only the 18th by 4 minutes. Grrr! Hi God, I’m thinking about you and I don’t want to leave. God, thank you. My experience at GVSU has been the best of my life. And there is no way I would have chosen this place. I’ve learned…
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January 15, 2005
Approximately 4:00pm Age: 18 years 5 months 17 days So I met some very cool guys two nights ago (redacted, redacted, and redacted). I don’t want to summarize details of the past two nights. Anyway, redacted is extremely attractive, and I mean extremely. I love his sense of style and I love his hair. He…
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January 12, 2005
Approximately 10:00pm Age: 18 years 5 months 14 days Let me not talk, for so often I say nothing. Why write? For how little I understand! Do I know what that means? I cannot lie, I don’t know what I say. I run for a diversion. I don’t even know how to think about this.…
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