December 26, 2004

Age: 18 years 4 months 27 days

“She is here because she’s on every page of your imagination”

“ You can visit her anytime you like by believing. Just believe” – Finding Neverland

“Let me just sit here walking around bananna-ing to my dormitory” – compilation quotes from missayings waiting for redacted, by redacted and myself

I went to the bathroom after the theater and the lyrics to the song were “ just believe”.  Coincidentally, that line struck me in the movie.

 To the point The movie struck a chord with me. I enjoyed it very much, probably because I am in the process of writing a script and know how events in life take form in the story.

 I liked seeing it without redacted since he is a sort of news for my story, but for the same reason I want to see it with him.

 So what exactly struck me about this movie? Johnny’s wife wanted to be taken to Neverland, and Johnny couldn’t find a way to bring her. But in the most beautiful way he was able to bring Kate Winslet to Neverland.

 Side note – the movie is a bit like Shakespeare in Love, both being the creation of a play.

I enjoyed seeing how the events of his life formed the story. And what’s funny is that I am going to try to include this Neverland idea in redacted’s biography because I recalled that her favorite Disney movie of Peter Pan. I tried hard earlier to recall what it was, and I could only remember watching Sword in the Stone. Now I recall, and it can be a perfect fit in her biography. She’ll love it.

 The story reminded me very much of redacted. Oh, the line that struck me is “ I need to go on pretending”.  It was nice that Johnny really did love Kate, but the pretending thing hit home too.

 I’ve been in a bad mood, especially today, but yesterday as well. How selfish I’ve been. I wasted opportunities to make someone’s day. That just makes me in an even worse mood. What grand adventures did I miss out on? All the waste! Let me stop wasting time and help me live fully! How horrible my sour mood was one directed at redacted. I have not the patience to delay watching a film in order to slow down to give a kind word. Forgive me?


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