Age: 18 year 4 months 19 days
Approximately 4:00am
Wow, all I want to do is write. I want to write a script, I’m scared to start. But I really want to more than anything. I don’t know what it will be about. I was thinking that it would be about love. But what about love? I’m not sure. Love at first sight? I’d like the idea that a natural phenomenon can make you feel like you are with your lover. That’s what redacted said after we watched Edward Scissorhands. I like that idea a lot too. I was reminded of something, like looking up to the moon and knowing that he’s looking at the same thing. I want to write this script to help me not miss him as much. And I do miss him. It hasn’t even been a day, and I miss him. I can’t wait until I get back from Florida and can see him again. I’m glad that he’s coming back early. 20-25 days is so long, but I can live with 10 days.
So I want to write this script. I really do, and I’m excited about it. But what’s the story? I don’t know yet. I guess I could just start writing dialogue without an idea of the pot yet. I don’t like writing like that but it’s the only way that I can get things out.
Crap, but I want to develop some things / themes first. The script could be about that one natural phenomenon ( like snow) that reminds me of my lover even after death.
Side note – how fun would it be to write a Shakespearean sonnet? I really hope that we were assigned something like that in our class. I would love to do it. It would be so hard. Maybe I’ll try to do it on my own though.
Also side note, I need to write more. What am I doing not writing every day?
Go back to the story… So am I explaining why this natural event occurs? That goes back to Greek mythology. So I could have some sort of Greek myth love story? Possibly…
What do I want to say? How strong is love? This, of course, will be true love, the love for dreamers. How about when dreamers love this reality. That sounds depressing. I’d like to dream a while.
So there will be something that brings us together even when we’re apart. What separates us? I don’t know yet. It could be death.
Do I want this love trapped in a snow globe to be preserved forever for examination? I’d like this love to be so real that it affects people who see it. It makes people want to be a better person, search for the truth, love others, become self-actualized.
What makes this love so good? I want to comment and how we make love a god, because that’s true. We long for it, we worship it, and love excuses any act. So I want this to comment on the nature of Love. Look at CS Lewis’s the four loves for insights on how we idolize love.
But in the end, love is not bad. Love is the most wonderful gift humans have. But we’re shipping love above all else has its consequences. I’ll figure those out later.
I love you God, I just had to throw that in there. And like everything with meaning I want this to point in some way to you or your teachings.
Love like a wilting flower when it’s Earthly love? I don’t want this simply to the arrows. This love should be full, even past the stage of erotic desire. The friendship must be deep, and the commitment strong.
– Side note – I still want to make people happy anyway possible. It’s so much fun. God, you are way is the best. This seems to be what life is about.
The love will be an evolving love too. It will make sure with time. This is where / how will see that the god Love is not the supreme god and that without God love is lacking. It is insufficient.
There will be conflicts. I don’t know what they are yet.
I really like redacted’s way of looking at life as a story. It makes one want to live every moment and get to know new people, and helps one focus left on their own faults / insecurities. It also makes stories like movies, plays, books take on new and more important meetings. One can really learn something about life through these stories. They teach us something. Aristotle recognized that also.
The lovers need to meet somewhere. Their souls have always known each other? Remember that independent short? The souls met and the people joined together. I really liked that one. It was the opening short to Purgatory House.
So the lovers meet, they go through problems, love matures, and the script comments on the nature of love. I need a setting. The characters are human. There will be some surreal Parts, metaphors and such. Do I want a Moulin Rouge type crazy world? I do not know yet. And how do the characters’ love develop? And I need to know what love is before I can comment on it. I do have some idea, but I need to continue working out this philosophy.
We are joined eternally by the bond / force of love.
This doesn’t need to be full-length either. That’s a ton. This could be a short. It seems like a full-fledged project though. How will I do this?
How is the love of upset / led astray? Does that need to happen? And again, what natural phenomenon reminds us of our love? I like that Greek mythology has a part in this. It’s good too because Greek gods were Gods based on humans. Some human characteristics were elevated to God status. And that’s what I’m commenting on. We make these traits to be a God, I love the Supreme one, but we are basing these Gods off the wrong form, ourselves, who are inherently flawed, the Supreme God cannot be created out of ourselves. The Greek mythology is perfect. Maybe I could throw in some Greek words or quotes too. How cool would that be?
Again, I’m excited about this and really long to write the full script. Yeah, how wonderful to have a project to work on over break. Help me not to be afraid to work on it. I don’t care if it turns out horribly if at least there is something that has been turned out. And after that, there’s time to go back and revise. The only failure is not trying. I need to try this. I need to do this.
So what’s the story? How does this work out? Ooo… This is the part that gets me. Lovers are separated. I like death being the cause of Separation. Then I can do scenes from Beyond the Grave, or take us a real journey to the underworld and again use Greek mythology.
Ah, I can’t stop yet. I just got started. Okay, the love had to be real before death. Do I want a traditional love story, like The Notebook? A Romeo and Juliet tale? How does this work out? ( God, help me in my dreams tonight. That would be so cool if you did. I want to develop this further). When Harry Met Sally? No, yuck. Real love… How do I do this? What’s the setting? I’m going to dream about this. I can’t let it die.
Okay. I need to explain how the natural phenomenon came to be. So which one? Air? Rain? A specific flower?The Sun? The spinning Earth? I smell? Wouldn’t it be cool if simply breathing reminded you of your lover? Anything could remind you of your lover.
These kids are dreamers. That’s wonderful.
…I’m not done yet. So we have a few dreamers. One’s a theater kid, the other one wants to make a movie. Ha! Probably not. Friends can help them. There could be a mentor, or source of wisdom. Again, there’s always some concern with the truth.
Is there some code / rule / guideline for a lover’s movie? I’m sure there are. I wish we learned that instead of westerns so I could break the stereotypes. I can do some of it anyway.
Am I really going to have them meet and fall in love? That idea sounds a bit repulsive to me, unless I can do it in a new and creative manner. How does one go about falling in love? Do I have a flippant character like Romeo ( or myself, to a degree) Who falls in love easily? Are there guidelines to falling in love? A step-by-step process? Good thing I think I’ve fallen in love before. At least I have some idea.
Do I talk about how love is interpreted differently to different people? Is it? Anyone can see love in movies and recognize it as love. The main thing is to comment on how love acts as a God, but should not be the first God. It should be present. “ A life without love; that’s terrible”. We need love. Love makes us human? Do we want to be human? And what ways do we want to be human?
– Side note – I really like this new Journal. It’s awesome. I’m so happy that my sister got it for me and that I can use it.
The script, of course, has something to do with living. How to live the best life, and how love plays a role in life. What else would I write about?
Am I done for the night? I don’t know where else to go. A setting is hard to pick without developed characters or plot. The full ( or partial) plot would be a good thing to work on next. That is something for tomorrow… How wonderful to be writing! I can’t wait to start again. And I will. I must. I can’t leave this unfinished. It would be such a waste. Goodnight God. Thank you for this opportunity and for this passion. I will do the best I can for you. To the best of my ability, I do this for you. Glad I repeat the same thing in sequential sentences with different words. Yeah, so, good night, adieu, and peace.
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