Age: 18 year 4 months 1 days
12:30 am
Hi. So, like I told you, I do miss talking. I miss living for you. What’s wrong? I’ve been so angry lately. I hate this! I know that I love redacted, I forgot why, but I can remember good times with him. I feel so hurt and betrayed though. He doesn’t want to see me, I don’t want to see him, but he wants to hang out with redacted.
It’s not something I should be angry about. It’s just… Have I lost my whole group of best friends? ( And at the same time nonetheless?)
It’s hard to know if I’m friends with any of them anymore. It’s like everything good has gone out of our relationship. I miss you. What am I doing? I’m not living? Not the best that I can. I guess I’m angry at you too. Why are these things happening? And I’ve been in a bad mood since break started. I can’t live like this. And how can you forgive me?
I’ve been readjusting my view of you as you make yourself clear through the Bible and redacted’s insights. I’ve forgotten what it’s like to love you in the process. And if I can love you I guess that I can’t even love my best friends.
So how do we get great again? How do things get fixed?
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