Age: 18 year 2 months 5 days
Hi God. Hi. How are you? I’m getting tired, but don’t think that I can sleep. My eyes are being funny though since I’ve been reading or writing all day. Today was a good day though, I spent it well.
Oh, I’m beginning to find redacted attractive. I don’t want to. He has a girlfriend, and there’s no way I’ll date him until I at least know him. All this liking boys is silly. I don’t want it. I am distracted. Redacted does things that flatter me though. He’s someone I’d get annoyed with. I don’t think that I could ever date him. Then again, I never thought I could like redacted.
I’m sick of this, like I said. Why am I discontented at my singleness? Help me, okay? I want to follow your plan. I’m concerning myself more with boys then with you. How silly since you are my love. My first love and my eternal love. I take comfort in that.
I’m trying to learn more for you, and really for me. I believe that my learning is me working for the person I am and you. That’s a goal isn’t it? To become the person you want me to be, which is my true unique person. I haven’t said things right. I have a problem with that, but I don’t care to exert the effort to clarify.
Moving on… what are you going to teach me tonight?
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