Age: 18 year 1 months 21 days
Hi God. It’s Sunday. I didn’t think about that. I’ve been trying to fill all my time today doing homework. I’m bored. I’m also having the hardest time writing this introductory speech. Here’s a chance to tell people about me, and as much as I like talking about me and my revelations, how do I give them something that matters to them? This is a chance I have to share something with them. I’m sure they all value life. I’m sure they’ve thought about the future, especially since we’re in college and they need to decide what career they would like to do. But are they on the right path? Is there past the most fulfilling road? Or are they chasing after meaningless dreams?
I’m sure that not all of them have chosen the path to life. How do I make my life so interesting and relatable that they want to find the road to life with all of their hearts? How do I share my story without lecturing to them? How do I tell them about my passions and who I am and have them say “I want to live life” or at least “ I need to think harder about how I am spending my life”? That’s the hard part.
It’s easy to talk about myself for three minutes, but I don’t want to do something so vain without leaving them anything. It seems to violate the main desire of my life: to share the truth with others. Talking about my revelations is no good unless they are relatable.
I want to offer up things about myself but people respond with a desire to live, or think, or find out their passions. That’s the hard part. But I can’t preach it then. I can only tell them about myself. I can only tell them who I am. How is that inspiring?
On a side note: I love you and I trust that you know best concerning who I date or marry. I know that things hurt right now between me and redacted, but you can use this for good. If you don’t want me with him, it’s so good that I’m not. I’m glad that you have kept me from every boy I’ve fallen for in the past. I could not have been happy with any of them, not even redacted. We’re not suited for each other. The thought of being with redacted is ridiculous anyway. That doesn’t mean that I didn’t fall for him. So, I trust you. Whatever you have planned for me, bring it on. Help me get my heart back, so that I can give it fully to you.
About the speech. What do I say? I can’t go up there and say something meaningless. I can tell them that I’m a philosophy major. No, I would tell them what I’m most passionate about. Oh, I forgot that would be you. Good answer, huh? I was thinking that it would be the truth and movies. Since you are the truth I was thinking along the right(ish) lines.
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