Age: 18 year 1 months 1 days
Whew, I’m tired. It was the first day of classes. I don’t feel like summarizing much. Some classes will be very hard but I like where I’m at and I’m ready to work.
I was just sitting here feeling lonely, missing redacted. It’s mostly missing those times during the summer that were better than I can even imagine.
What can I do? I don’t know how things will play out. It was a great summer, a time to fall in love. Is that the end though? Is it now time to go our separate ways? Will my friendship with everyone in that group slowly ( or quickly) diminish and fade to nothing? If so, will you give me another community of strong believers?
It’s sad to think about. Keep us together if it be your will. Help me to find people here also to get to know deeply and intimately.
Help my friendship with the group grow in the separation. Give us lives independent of each other yet bless the times will still have.
Anyway, I still long for the way things were with redacted. I was really hoping he would be my husband. Now I don’t know, and I can still conceive it, yet I feel I should let the idea go. I want to stop trying to make it happen, and God, I give it again to you.
God, I am yours, first and always. Your will be done in my life. If it be your will bring the husband into my life who will help me grow closest to you.
Help redacted. Be with them. I hope they give everything back to you. Remind them, and continue to challenge them to grow.
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