August 17, 2004

Age: 18 year 0 months 19 days

Hey God. I’m back from movie night with redacted and redacted. It’s really good to hang out with people who believe in different doctrines and philosophies. Life is too easy in my Christian Community.

I don’t want to be closed-minded and stupid.

We started talking about homosexuality. God I’m torn. This is a huge issue because on one hand, I want to follow you wholeheartedly, but I will not blindly follow. I have been doing that.

It makes sense that homosexuals should be able to marry. Christians believe that marriage is a gift from you. They feel that homosexuality breaks the sacred commitment. But marriage is also so much a thing of this world. Couples get 1400 something benefits from marriage. All heterosexuals have the right to marry, even people who aren’t Christians, even atheists. Atheists get to marry, and their marriage is obviously not based on your marriage specifications. Their marriage is not blessed by you. But they still have the right to marry, and they have the right to marry for the wrong reasons. A heterosexual doesn’t even have to be in love to get married. They can marry for money, or lust, or a number of other sins.

The sinful world is already allowed to marry. The marriage of this world already isn’t for you God. But crap, the unbelieving heterosexual world gets benefits for their marriage that dishonors your code of marriage, whereas homosexual marriage is disgraced. It’s looked at as a demoralizing marriage, whereas marriage is already corrupt.

Homosexuals have a real, honest love for their partner and desire to be with him / her but we make it next to impossible, in the name of God.

Whose name are we using? Sure Christians are called to love you with all of their hearts, with all that we have. And that’s the problem. It’s sad to think that we can’t change the world for the better, and that we have no say in its declining morality. I see how we think that if we can keep the world from homosexuality and abortion we can make the world a more moral place. A place more in tune with your will. And why shouldn’t we strive for that?

Because we are being unfair to one specific group of people. We are targeting them and ignoring all heterosexuals living in sin. We’re prosecuting this one group and being fully unfair. Marriage is already desecrated. So why can’t homosexuals get similar privileges? The privileges that married couples get are not from God, they are from the world. Yes, marriage in God offers unseen privileges and eternal rewards, but marriage in God or not does not determine what tax deductions we get from the state. Even married atheists get tax reductions. The world’s benefits are unselective.

So yes, homosexuality is a sin ( though I still have problems with that fact that my good friends didn’t choose to be that way. They tried to follow you and ignored their feelings, but eventually decided they had to be true to themselves.)  Ah, this matter is deeply personal to me because three of my friends have accepted their feelings toward same-sex partners and two who used to be devoted followers of you turned from you because they couldn’t deny themselves. Should they have to deny their natural impulses? Yes, definitely. All Christians have natural impulses toward sin and must be denied. Homosexuality is one thing that can be denied and shouldn’t be acted upon. I’m trying hard to believe that.

But does that mean that we should fight gay marriage? What about fair treatment of people? This is nowhere near fair.  But should we sit back while the world is turned free on its sin? We have a cause worth fighting for. We have a god worth fighting for. We have a god worth defending.

But then we have human beings who want equal treatment. Heterosexual sinners get the benefits of marriage. In cases, homosexuals love their partner with more fervor than heterosexual marriages. Both live in their sin, yet one is allowed to love and the other is alienated ( ostracized ←  is that the right word?)

Why can’t Christians accept them? We accept other types of sins because they are closer to ourselves and our hearts.

Homosexual marriage is not about Christians allowing sin, but more about loving human beings and equal treatment.

If Christian can use the argument that marriage is from God and designed for man and woman to ban gay marriage then according to Christians, only Christians have the right to marry. Think about it, if marriage is from God only the people who know God can be involved in this way of life.

But as it is, and as I’ve stated, ALL heterosexuals are allowed to marry. This is the world’s decision, and I don’t know of any Christians who would fight to make an amendment that only Christians can marry. Maybe we should though. Then worldly couples could have a different term for being legally together and they would get the benefits of the world. Christians, having claimed the title of marriage would not receive benefits from the world, but only benefits from God. Then it clear distinction would be made in the sacredness of marriage and marriage would only be from God.

In the case of that separation, it is obvious that homosexuals should get the same worldly privileges as heterosexual non-believers. Their partnerships all could be called “partnership” instead of “marriage”.  With that distinction, what reason could be found to deny homosexual their worldly rights? None, for they live in sin along with the rest of the world and there’s no reason to treat them with fear or hatred. The only reason the world could find to deny them their privilege of partnership would be if they found homosexual behavior gross. How could the world condone once in while praising all the other ones? It couldn’t and it wouldn’t happen.

The only people against homosexual marriage are Christians or conservatives with an unknown, unlocated source of morality. Mainly it’s Christians fighting against this though.

We really show the world how much we can hate and fear. We show them how much intolerance we have.

Christians must leave the world to its sins or fight the whole issue of immoral marriages without targeting a small, specific minority.

I see how we want to do good by fighting for Morality and for God’s standards, but we are going about it in the wrong way by fighting homosexuals. The issue is larger than their sin. The problem is the world, not them specifically. How can we blame problems on one small group?

As a result of our fear and unfair treatment (prejudice), homosexuals live in fear of rejection, hatred, violence. They can’t be themselves because they are not accepted. Where is the love? How did we let fear get in the way of love? And look at how we’ve lost. In the picture. We’ve pushed him to the side fighting logistics. Are we not called to love? What good do our judgments do? They tear people away from the one true love. The world doesn’t get to know the God that I know because we are fighting in the wrong manner. My God rocks, and my God loves them. My God cares about them. He cares about their safety. He cares deeply and wants them to know him.

We’ve forgotten that we’re trying to show them God’s love. It’s not our job to change them, be it that they even need to be changed. Our job is, and always has been, to love. How often we forget. 


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