Age: 18 year 0 months 10 days
Yesterday I watched a movie outside, from redacted’s hot tub. I had such a good time with redacted though that I can’t stop thinking about him.
God, redacted started wrestling with me on the trampoline. We wrestled for quite a while. I really enjoyed it. There is nothing better than being in his arms. Things are so natural with him. That might not be the best thing.
At one point I push him over and pushed his butt. He picked me up once and touched mine. I don’t mind or feel violated at all.
God, in the hot tub it was so hard to sit next to him and not touch him. I didn’t though, he had to make the first move. I did stupid annoying things to get his attention though.
I ended up in his arms quite a few times last night. I don’t feel bad about that. I’m not confessing evil things, but this desire to be with him is so strong.
God, I’m not leading him on. I would never do that to anyone. I can’t write how good it was to be with him.
I don’t think he would lead me on either. He’s usually the one who starts this flirting of sorts, but he knows better than to play with my heart.
It’s exciting that things could be your will, but not yet how God? Nope, we’re not ready to get married.
I stayed home today instead of going to the beach though because I wanted to spend time with you, but I slept for too much of the day. Also not wasted though.
God, why don’t you let me love redacted. Take this and don’t let me do anything stupid and against your will.
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