Age: 17 years 11 months 22 days
Hey God. Okay, now I will talk to you. First things first, redacted called me and arranged the plans. There’s something to flatter and confuse me even more. I need food. I’ll be back.
So hi God. It is now the Tuesday after TEC (Teens Encounter Christ) and I haven’t commented on TEC yet. As you know, today I thought through it and I still stand confused.
On the way home from work redacted asked if anything special had gone on at TEC or if you had worked in any special way? I thought about it and said “ not really”. then he asked if there were any first-time commitments or if people had encountered you? I didn’t know, but people did encounter you.
I look back on TEC and got it was a crazy TEC. Satan had his hold and really tried his hardest to tear this TEC down. God, I don’t see why he didn’t because I don’t see what you did at this TEC.
I feel let down. I feel like you weren’t as amazing as usual. And basically, I don’t care about this last TEC. No, that’s not true. But I’m trying to care for my candidates in the way I think I should and it’s not happening.
God, I trust that you worked in their lives, but it really seems like you should have worked harder for all the effort every worker put into text. This was a flight for everyone from beginning to end.
I just realized that these verses repeat themselves all the time. That’s annoying. There are a million verses in the Bible, they could at least change things up a bit more.
Anyway God, I don’t know what to say. I’m glad TEC is over with and I really don’t want to go back and do another one, but I would gladly do it if you want me as Overall (team leader) so redacted will work. I want her to work and I will gladly work if she comes. If you ask me number one, no question I should be rectora at the next council meeting and I will do your will God. Let me know if it is your will do. Oh, and help me change the music at the dance. We need contemporary songs.
So what do you want to tell me? You wanted to spend time with me before I go out. Well, really I wanted to dedicate the time to you. I give you the night and will do anything you ask, including cancel plans with redacted and redacted.
I’m confused again at redacted calling me and making plans without any say for myself. I’m flattered. But God, I won’t go out tonight if this is not in your plan. For some reason I think you want me to go. Is that right? Okay… I’m not sure what is going to happen. Give me strength to do your will around redacted. I won’t do anything against your plan. God, help keep me pure and safe and tell me what you will. Even help the conversations. I don’t want to walk at them today. I only want to be his friend tonight. I’m scared of things getting out of hand. I just had this weird idea that he may ask me out tonight. That’s crazy. God, why do you get my hopes up. That’s a totally crazy, random idea, and it won’t work. Maybe the title would be good for us. But no, I don’t want it unless it’s your time. Sorry for the thought. Now I have this stupid anticipation God, take this from me. I’m being silly. I’m not following you.
Guide me and interacting with redacted, redacted, and redacted, all so whoever else may be there. God, thank you for my friends. I really am blessed.
Maybe they repeat the verse is so much so I memorized them. That could be a good plan. I’m happy for the journal anyway. I like the way it looks, and I need a journal. It helps a lot to write out my thoughts, and I like remembering what’s happening in my life.
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