Age: 17 years 11 months 10 days
Hey God. I really miss redacted again. I’ve been trying to think of any excuse to call him and I won’t use the real reason “ I just want to know how you’ve been and what’s been happening in your life” call. I feel that I need to call for a reason, like to make a plan or something. Should I call him? I think I should. I really want to know how court went. May I give him a call?
Okay, I called but he didn’t pick up. That’s okay, he can call back if he wants now.
God, I really do miss him. I hope he’s all right after court. Oh, and help redacted and especially redacted as they continue to work on their relationship. Let them know you’re will because I know they will follow it. Give them the time and courage to talk about their problems, fears, and doubts. I really want to talk to redacted to find out how they’re doing.
I still miss redacted, but it’s worse when I’m just sitting here. I’m glad to go to Bible study tonight and hope to see redacted. I miss her. If it’s your will for me to have an accountability partner, let it be redacted. Well, I guess it could be someone else, but I don’t really want one if it’s not redacted.
Oh, and help me in this upcoming TEC. Give me time to work on my talk ( like today, I should have worked on it). God, guide all my actions at this upcoming text. And be with the candidates, protecting them from Satan’s blows. I don’t know what else to pray that makes sense.
God, I give whatever’s happening with redacted and me again to you. Do what you will, and whatever happens bless the direction we go in. I hope it’s your will that I see him tomorrow, but thanks for work to fill up my time. I hate sitting around wasting my time and I love my job. It’s for filling in the best thing you could have given me. Give me an opportunity to return the money to you. I would have given you the first of it, if I get paid Friday leave early. But God I am waiting to get money before I give it to you.
Oh, and help redacted forgive me for my past addiction to masturbation. I would really like to talk to him, if he has any fears, doubts, or questions. I’ll be honest with him. I really want him to fully forgive me. It will kill me if he can’t. Good will come out of it though. I trust you. God, I’m yours. I love you. Come with me to Bible study. Let’s learn something, and build friendships. Help me to contribute in to learn. Let’s work together as a community. I can’t wait to see how you will use this. I really love you. Thank you so much, I’m not sure for what, for everything really.
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