Age: 17 years 10 months 15 days
…Even piece of crap movies. God, we can learn something about you and everything.
I went to Mars Hill today and it was great to meet you there. There was a point in the sermon where pastor *Rob Bell (*not redacted because he is a famous pastor) was tying up the lesson with symbols. The sermon was about how we try to put you in a box God. We try to do that with religion. But you just go where you please, and we get surprised and scared to see you working in ways we are unfamiliar with. But you are like the wind, you blow where you please.
God, I think I’ve settled into ( what’s the word) (I guess…) routine Christian Life. No, that’s not it. But I forget how many different ways you work. I forget how fresh you are. I forget how unrestricted you are. You don’t set up rules and boundaries and you definitely don’t work inside the lines. You’re not restrictive in any way.
I forget how much fun we have, and how nothing I do with you is ordinary. Oh. I got it! I’ve settled into my comfort zone. I haven’t been meeting people in talking with them. I haven’t been open to discussions. I haven’t been thinking as much. I’ve settled down with my best friend who is easy to be with you around. I want to step out of my comfort zone. I want to start talkin about challenges to Christianity again. I want redacted, redacted, and redacted again to challenge me. I’m sick of comfort zone. I need something more.
Anyway Rob was saying how we create buckets and try to put all we know about you in there. But you don’t work like that. Instead you give us glasses that change the way we view the world, but there are unrestricted. I forget the profound meaning I got from this but when he said lenses I knew that making this movie is right. And for a second I had this amazing new insight into the movie. It will be shot through a lens, viewed by another lens (eyes) and hopefully be like the glasses God gives to us. It’s there to show us new things, not to restrict us, even though it kind of does. The movie is there to help people to “test everything” as it says in 1st Thessalonians. We need a challenge. The world needs a challenge. And I’m going to make a movie. I need to keep developing my philosophy on it though.
I’m leaving for redacted’s open house soon. I hope there are people there that I don’t know. I would like to meet new people or at least God, I don’t know, but I want this to be fully glorifying to you. It will be great to see redacted, yes, but let’s do something God. No, I don’t know what. Just something. Help me start a conversation with someone new or something. This will be good. Also, I’m going to redacted’s open house. This is actually exciting. I can’t wait to do something for you. Help me break out of my comfort zone, or challenge me, or something. Anything., as long as you’re there. I’ll do anything for you. Please let me do something. Now I’m really excited about this. Can we go?
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