Age: 17 years 10 months 12 days
Wow, I can’t believe that I haven’t written in this all day. I mean, there were so many points during the day where I needed to talk to you and again give you my relationship with redacted. I guess I thought I had written in here. But no, I remember talking to you. We didn’t need to write it down.
God, I miss redacted. I told you many times today, I’m sure it’s annoying. But thank you again for this time apart. We need it. I’m glad not to see him for a few days. I got annoyed with him. I don’t want to still be annoyed with him, so we definitely need some time apart. This is good. I want it to be good to see him when I do Sunday, not like “ah, there we go again”. Let’s remember that we’re best friends, and then that I love him so much. Hopefully there will be no more bickering, and we’ll connect and that way we sometimes do. At least don’t let our time together be meaningless. Let’s honor you with our time, and develop friendships with other people at his open house. It will be fun to socialize and hopefully some of those conversations will be for friendships and help us grow in you. Please come to redacted’s open house. I don’t want anything he does to be without you. This is another opportunity that can be used for you. Let redacted and redacted not get over stressed while preparing for this, And please grace us with your presence there. We want to know you more, and I don’t see any reason why we couldn’t do that at is open house. At least be there. We don’t want to engage in meaningless activity.
I’ve been talking to you pretty oddly lately, haven’t I? It’s been pretty serious. What’s wrong? Nothing. I know. I’ve been using big words. I mean what I say, but it’s so much like a formulated prayer. It’s not typical of me. I’m such a goof. That’s usually how I pray. Eh, well, What can I do? I haven’t been in the mood to be stupid.
Anyway, thanks a lot for the journal. It’s a blessing. Looking on this, it really helps focus my thoughts on you many times a day. It’s helped my spiritual life a ton. I remember you more often and I like to pray more. It’s wonderful that my teacher made me start one of these. It really is a blessing. Who knew?
Well, what can I do for you now? Help me tomorrow at the film festival. I’m working at it. Help me be friendly and outgoing. I want to meet some new people and talk with them. I just realized that this could be an opportunity to use for you. At least I can start some new relationships and brighten people’s days. And we can talk about good films. Yay! People who like good movies. This will be fun. Come with me now. Don’t let me get a bad attitude. Fun! I hope I learn more about films also. I’m kind of looking forward to this out. I wasn’t really before, but now I am. Wake me up in the morning on time though. I don’t want to be late.
Is there anything I can do for you now. I would like to read something. Got any good books? I could read the Bible again, but oh, look at that, I just got super tired. Darn, no more Bible today. Good one huh? How come I actually do get tired when I think about possibly reading the Bible? Satan is attacking me. Reading the Bible usually turns out good though, best part of the day even. But yeah. I don’t want to read it now. Only if you really want me to, I will. Eh! Maybe it’s time for bed.
My thoughts are drifting to redacted again. I give you the relationship. Jeez, I have to give this to you a lot. I’m glad I do though. Aren’t you glad to see me maturing? I’m turning to you for guidance in this relationship. I actually want your full guidance, and we’ll try as hard as I can to follow your will rather than mine and its relationship. That’s the best I can do to make this thing work. I’ll leave the rest up to you, so you can do your thing. Haha! Phrases are so stupid. I talk so poorly. Oh well, no matter how stupid I sound ( I don’t think I’ll even want to read this in a few years) you still love me. So maybe let’s go to bed? Yes? No? Okay? I say yes. You can say no if you like. Yes to? Alright, bed it is!
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