Age: 17 years 9 months 26 days

I want to write down my views about dating. I’ve been saying lately over and over that I don’t want to date anyone except my husband. I think that’s a great idea. Then we get into logistics.

See, I don’t see a problem with kissing before you’re married, but I do see a problem in dating people other than your husband. I want to give myself fully to him, not be split up amongst many lovers. Dating many others seems to take away from the relationship I will have with him. Yes, you learn many things from relationships, and I don’t think that I could enter into a marriage relationship without the knowledge I have from the relationship with redacted. But God, I don’t need more experience. You keep giving me knowledge through observation and through friendship. But I’m not ready to get married yet.

I seriously do not want to date anyone other than my husband, and I would like to not date my husband until we get married. I think that could happen with redacted if he is the one I marry. I will not date him, but if the time comes we would acknowledge our friendship is something more. I’m thinking we’ll know if and when it’s time to get married, because you’ll tell us. Right now though, he’s a friend for life.

God, if it’s your will I will date someone other than my husband and learn from it. If you have more to teach me, go for it. But as things are, don’t let me get caught up in the idea of having a boyfriend who is not a potential spouse. 

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