Age: 17 years 8 months 21 days
Praise God! I praise you God. Yes I do. You are amazing. I know that I’ve been selfish and in a bad/ don’t want to talk to you for real/ mood all day, but I can’t help talking to you. Please listen to my prayers for others even when I’m not where I should be with you. I’m exhausted and running on my own strength because I was too stubborn to rely on you or something like that. I just want to sleep, but I’m at Calvin for a while yet and there is so much to praise you about. Basically I haven’t had time yet to go sit in my room and ball with joy for how you have touched redacted, but I’m sure it will come up as soon as things settle down a bit with the move. Yes, we’re moving today, moving to Granville. I like the house and I am glad to live by redacted.
Anyway, wow! I know that right now I am not fully in touch with you. I’ve given Satan a foothold and can’t seem to shake him on my own. But seriously, do I have to be pissy all day? Why can’t I come back to you midway in the day. There are still more opportunities that I don’t want to miss, and I’m sad about the ones I did miss. I need energy and a new attitude first.
But I still want to praise you about redacted.
Whew, I feel better now. I got some rest here on the couch at Calvin. I’m going to check the time. Mmmm… I’m hungry. Man, but my throat still hurts. I guess I can’t have everything.
Hey God, I don’t feel like starting where I left off now that I have gotten some rest. In a way, I feel like it’s a new day. Can I give this day to you? Yes? Will you come here with me? Yes? And you forgive me for my mistakes? Only if I ask huh? God, I don’t want to be without you one second longer. Forgive the way I treated redacted when they were down and only needed encouragement. I failed them and you, and took my own unfeeling, selfish way. But, we’re still going to have things to do when I get to the new house, and I don’t want to behave the way I previously did. Please forgive me for being horrible to redacted. I found it so difficult to be a Christian around them last night. And I was / am confused about my place at the last TEC. It felt like I was there for me, and not your will. No, that’s not true though. I’m glad for how the weekend worked out.
And it worked out indeed! I have yet to talk to redacted personally about the weekend as a whole and its impact on them, but I know it made a difference. They made real friends! They want to come back to work. They prayed to you! They talked about you. They helped other people to think. They found love. And now, see that path of questioning, making sure of you before they become hot. But they met you, and don’t stop working God. You’re not done yet. They haven’t decided to be hot yet, but when they do, they will be on fire. If they become sure of you there will be no stopping them. If they’re a Christian, they’ll be a revolutionary one, never a Sunday Christian. Their life will be all for you. But they’re not ready to make that jump yet, I don’t think. Maybe a bit longer of confirmation, a bit more help on your part. The thing is though, they know you. They know you now. And they have seen how wonderful you are.
That’s an insane thing to even grasp. They’ve been living in the dark for so long and now they’re beginning to see the light. I’m so happy, ecstatic really. I can barely believe the changes I see before my eyes. Not everything is great and perfect now, but hey, it won’t be until we are with you. Help me to be there for them more than I am now. They miss me and think I’m never around. I want to be around for them more. Give me opportunities to see them. Give me the opportunity to see them and talk to them tonight! Fill me in on their life tonight. Let us get even closer. I am going to miss them a lot when I go to college. At least they’ll be close enough that we can visit.
God, thank you for redacted. They’ve been as much of a help for me is I have been for them. They may have helped me even more. They’re wonderful, I genuinely cool person. I love them to bits and thank you so much for putting them in my life.
Work in their life some more! I know that you want them to know you even more than I do, so why am I demanding that from you? I’m not sure. I want them to be that hot, happy Christian though. Let’s continue to convince them of your truth!
Thank you so much for the TEC weekend. It’s been such a blessing in so many ways, and to so many people. Help the candidates as they are back in the world. Surround them as you do at TEC, And let them turn to you instead of relying on friends for strength. Let the friendships from TEC actually last, and help them to grow together in you.
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