Age: 17 years 7 months 4 days
I need to write down my schedule before I forget things.
Thursday – 7:30 Calvin Christian “Oklahoma”
Friday – play? Movie night
Saturday – hang out with redacted, redacted concert, hang out with redacted b4 their concert?
Sunday – Youth group service after morning church service
Sunday March 14 – Wheat team party
1:30-4:00
Friday, March 19 – bowling (28th between Burlingame + Byron Center)
March 25-27 – South’s play
Hey God, oh gosh, guess what I am doing? Watching a movie. You know I was watching about 5 movies a day now that I’m not watching TV? Well, I just wanted to see one, but redacted went and rented two. This is not going to be a horrible habit thing, 2-3 movies a day. But I really just wanted to see Thirteen. She got Spellbound, the other one I have been wanting to see. So I watched most of that. Now Thirteen just started. I wanted to see what the teen life was like when they’re all into drugs and stuff. Oh, that was a scary opening. I want to see it because redacted’s life may be a bit like this. If I didn’t watch both movies tonight I wouldn’t get to see them for a while. I know it’s not spending my time focusing on you. In fact, I put off doing devos (spending time with you until after the movie).
The mother in this movie is kind of out of it. Geez, bad mother. But of course the girl is making decisions on her own too.
God, I don’t want movies to replace my time with you. I’m glad to be watching this movie though. The things kids get into… I wonder how much of this is like redacted’s life.
God, she reminds me so much of redacted. I hope that redacted is not like her. I hope that redacted’s not so much into the drugs. I don’t think that their ideology is exactly the same. I don’t think they’re only doing it to be popular. I think they’re trying to find their place, God, that really sucks. They’re looking for you though. I know you’re working and they’re drawing closer to you, so they may not know it. God, they’re so smart, so gorgeous, why are they doing this? God, I want them to know you. I want them to stop wasting their life. God please keep working with them. I know, I just hate to see them so unhappy.
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