January 24, 2004

Age: 17 years 5 months 26 days 

Ugh, I don’t know exactly why but I feel really sick right now. Oh, I got my driver’s license yesterday. It would be wonderful and everything if I had a car and a job that I liked. But, one step at a time.

So, I am going to write a movie! What will it be about? I was thinking about it and maybe life is really just one big movie. We think that the image is there the whole time. The image is fluid. But in the movies the picture is just a bunch of snapshots moving along the screen, making everything appear to be moving. In real life the image is always there though. But in the movie the person could reach to pick something up and time will slow and the object will disappear for a second. And she becomes able to slow down time that the movie is played in in order to move in between frames. She could also speed up time. I don’t like it. At most it could be a short, 10-minute film. Not good enough for my movie.

Maybe I want a sort of absurd movie. Like an Alice in Wonderland story or Moulin Rouge style. Maybe a dysfunctional family. No, like a fantasy, like The Hobbit, with goblins toasting bumblebees. Or a passionate love story. Someone on a quest for true love. Or have an inspirational character try to bring life to Earth. The guy who is always the life of the party. Or have an unexpected person do something extraordinary. Or a movie that takes a look at death.

What do I want to say in the movie? It will contain some statement about life. I want something original on its own as a whole, but have similar aspects from different mediums. Like the Matrix and how it’s fully original but taken from so many different sources. Maybe I want this movie to be a character study of a normal, average human girl who has no exceptional distinguishing quality. Can I make a movie where absolutely nothing happens like Adaptation wanted to? Could I do that and avoid it being like About Schmidt. Do inner human revelations have to occur if there is no action to the plot?

I know what I wanted to do. I want to actually talk to the audience in my movie. I want to involve then. Can my movie be interactive? How? Like 13 Conversations About One Thing.

Going online to look up interesting facts or interesting stories… Maybe he’ll get an idea for a movie out of one of those and will go around asking people what they would like to see in a movie. Other people can help and give good ideas and / or suggestions.

I want my movie to change American society. Maybe I could change the way we view women or sex or love. 

I’m really liking the idea of a good fantasy movie. I like the magic thing. There’s this Indescribable quality to good magical stories like The Hobbit or Aladdin.

I want my movie change the audiences lives. I want it to be impactful and meaningful. I’m debating whether or not impactful is a word.

Maybe I could make a movie about our family. Like life at the cottage or redacted and redacted and other characters like redacted and redacted. That’s actually a really good idea. We do have a pretty weird, psychologically interesting family.

I really like films that are in black and white. Color has a lot of potential for symbolic uses and stuff but I would like to make one movie in beautiful, high definition black and white. N

Movie scripts are so… Well scripted. Redacted pointed out that she would like to see a movie where they stumbled over words just like people do in real life. There should be a dialogue where character can’t figure out the words that he is trying to say. Fumble a bit. I bet I could make scripted fumbling sound real. Will that bring the person out of the movie though or more into it?

“This statement is false.

The above statement is true”

-Andy O

For a short movie – documentary-style. Man gets police title and badge so that he can fulfill his lifelong dream of enforcing all of the ridiculous laws in the state of Michigan. He goes around arresting people for breaking the silly laws. Comedy, like a Candid Camera episode.


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