Age: 17 years 2 months 2 days

Ah, Today started out bad. Redacted lectured me all the way to school about how rude I am. I don’t know what started it. I guess it was shutting the glove compartment. But I didn’t do it in a rude manner. Why am I so rude to redacted? I’m rude to a lot of people actually. Why am I? I shouldn’t be like that. There is no reason to put myself above others. It seems like that is what I am doing. But I don’t want to do that. I don’t want to treat others poorly. I want to be absolutely sweet to redacted and in a good mood. There is no reason for a bad mood, it brings others down. I don’t want that. I want to change and I can only do that with you God.

 God, I haven’t done my devotions for the past three nights. It’s been a long time, but thank you God for still being here and not punishing me. Still, I want to be with you more, and I could have done my devos all three nights, I have been making excuses so I can go to bed without doing them. It’s been my choice and it shows. I am ruder without you and I don’t like it. I want to be better to redacted and it sucks that redacted thinks I’m always in a bad mood or have a bad attitude. I don’t always! But help me to be in a better mood most of the time, no all of the time. God, I can’t show you or share you when I’m angry and full of hate. God, help me to love others.

Orphan Poem

 The day was bright

 the grass a healthy green

 Birds sang –  hoping for a perfect mate

And my parents – 

They were in love.

They had planned their vacation

Years in advance

Everything was perfect.

They were to travel around the world

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