Age: 17 years 0 months 29 days
Yesterday I watched a movie called Waking Life and it really disturbed me. So much in fact that it’s still fresh in my mind. It was a highly philosophical movie, in fact all it did was hit you with philosophy on philosophy. But what it accomplished was to throw away many of my philosophies that seemed impossible to reach. Why bother learning philosophy at all when you won’t ever wake up? It left on the depressing note of him never waking up, so his whole life had been a dream, or all he knew of it. And even though he came close to realizing the fact, he didn’t escape it.
How does that work when all I want is to really live life? I have to study philosophy to find some meaning in this life but it’s all in vain even if I realize the truth because it’s proposed that we don’t wake up.
I know that I only have limited understanding of this movie because it went so deep so fast that it was quite impossible to process every new philosophy they proposed.
Anyway, I can deny the idea of no hope which I am going to do. I still believe that I can wake from a dream if there’s such a thing at all and that at least keeps me going.
Oh, on a side note, it disturbs me very much that I find such comfort and satisfaction in having correctly predicted the ending and the use of existential philosophy. I don’t know why it’s so satisfying, maybe because so much of the movie flew over me, though I’m reluctant to say I didn’t learn everything I could from the movie in that one sitting.
Still, I have realized how absolutely little I know. In fact, I believe I don’t know anything but I am still coming to accept that.
The final analysis – this movie threw me off by unbalancing my idea that I can really live life. Never mind, final is not a word I can use on this subject. There is no way I could reach a final analysis and be correct with so little thought. Or maybe…
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