Age: 16 years 11 months 10 days
Hey God,
How are you? I’m a bit tired right now but I’m actually glad that I get this time to talk to you.
Last night’s message really hit home. God, it was perfect, exactly what I needed to hear. I was ready to give up, to not try to get to know anyone, to stay by myself into continue to judge people. I was ready to indulge in the hatred. The last night was exactly what I needed to hear. It really opened my eyes that you care about everyone and in small discussion with our cabin I was able to open up in to share my struggles and how you have been a part of my life. It also helps me to see each person is a human who needs love and who needs acceptance and is someone I may be able to help.
I would really like to get to know some people here but I need your help. I need opportunities to start conversation and I need your help with words.
Also, last night redacted challenged us to pick someone in our cabin to be Jesus to all week. I’m not quite sure how to do that but I really feel that you want me to get close to redacted. So if that is the case, give me opportunities and make it obvious because I miss a lot of things. I don’t know how to talk to them or what they need help in but help me to build a relationship.
God, I guess that I have been wanting to meet people for my own personal benefit. I want someone to care for me and I want a group to hang out with. But God, I would really just like to get to know people so that you can be glorified. I know that you have a lot to changing me and I still have some bitterness in my heart and I definitely need your help. Thank you so much for being here, I can see you and I can feel you. I know that you have been helping me and I really feel that you are going to start a revolution in my life this week. So thank you for this opportunity to grow closer to you.
I need your help keeping up a good, positive attitude today. I don’t want to complain it all, so help me watch my tongue. I know you have been convicting me of your tongue lately and I would like to watch it. It will make everything more enjoyable.
God, I’m really bad at getting to know people, especially here but I really want to get to know someone, if that is your will. Well, maybe that’s not your will. I know it is what I want but I’m not sure it’s what you want. So it’s okay if I don’t get to know someone really well. I just need your help being friendly, nice, and caring.
Please help redacted to hear your voice. They’ve never heard you before and they need our guidance. God, open their heart and their eyes so that they can hear you. It is hard listening to what you say and I know that I miss it all the time. I am stubborn and selfish, and I always try to do things by myself. And then I get lost. God, I don’t listen to you as often as I would like. I want to say and you always so that I can hear your will. Help me to remain in you this week. And help redacted to really find your love.
Help the Freshman as they enter High School this year. It is scary. And I especially pray for redacted and redacted if they are going to EGR for high school. It’s so hard being a Christian there and I pray that you help them and me remain strong.
God, help me not to hold back my passion for you this week. Help me to come back to you. Change my heart, fill me with your love, and give me the ability to love others. Whew, thank you for loving me even though I’m filled with so many imperfections. I’m so glad that I do have a relationship with you.
God, help me to be myself. I have cared about my looks more this week than almost any other week this year. I feel flash fear that I have lost my individuality and that I am just a poser and not truly different. And God, I’m not different without you. You complete me and you make me who I am. I need you. You help to find who I am and without you I’m lost and just normal. You know how I don’t like being normal. I would rather be different. But help me not to reveal. I don’t think that rebelling is something that should be admired. It doesn’t take much thought to reveal. Just help me to be myself and follow your way. Help me to do what I feel is right, with or without the support of the crowd.
Well, I’m guessing this session is going to start since this is page 5 and it’s probably been half an hour. So my thoughts are drifting towards that. If you want me to sit by someone else, then convict me. Well, there’s the bell…
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