Sometime after October 7, 2002

Age: 16 years old

Struggles in life

Parents divorced when I was in 4th grade
Before divorce, every night they would fight. Redacted would leave house angry
I would avoid parents by staying in my room
I shut myself off from the world
I knew it wasn’t my fault my parents were fighting, but I felt that no one loved me and that no one would care if I were gone, I thought about killing myself but knew that life would get better
I would cry in my room
In fourth grade I went to Excel Charter Academy
I didn’t want to go there, had friends at the old school. Switched schools twice already.
Best time of my life
7th grade I met two awesome Christians: redacted and redacted
I have the biggest crush on redacted in 7th grade, and for the first time someone I liked liked me back, they made me feel special, the luckiest person in the world
I sat by redacted and redacted and we all became friends
I could tell something was different about these two
Redacted invited me to her small group at church, redacted went there too, so I went every Wednesday
I hated my church, so I went to redacted’s for fun.
Their church could never be mine though, I never belonged
Still go Wednesdays to Calvary Baptist. I went to camp every year

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