Age: 15 years old

Lord, you are so awesome, and so amazing. I love you so much. Lord, thank you so much for what just happened. Thank you. What just happened to me was amazing! But it hurt a lot. And I thank you for that pain, because I will be stronger from it. Here’s what happened: I talk to redacted about my Confession of Faith and tomorrow we are going out to talk about you. But, redacted finds this to be a horrible, disgusting thing. So, I was talking to them about this. We got in an argument (sorta) but I said that this wasn’t about anything else, except God. It wasn’t for them or others, only for God. They didn’t believe me. They said that that was wrong and that nothing I did was for God, and God doesn’t care about that, he only cares about how I behave [redacted statement]. They didn’t mean to hurt me in the way they did, I know that. But, those words, they hurt me more than anything ever has. Fortunately for me, no one can tell me how much I love God, and no one knows what’s in my heart besides God. But God, with that pain, you have opened up an opportunity to prove them wrong, dead wrong. Oh, and I will. I don’t need to prove my faith to them, but I need to show them that their judgments about me are wrong. So, here’s my opportunity. I need to change. I need to help out willingly, and I need to respect redacted, I need to be a good Christian around them. And I want to. Thank you, for helping me through the pain. For opening my heart, so I would learn something and grow in you. And, I’m begging you, have redacted show me my faults all the time so that I can change for you.

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