15 years old

God, I was completely horrible today, and this weekend. I became a horrible person, like the worst part of myself came through today mostly. But look where I am without you. In the past three days I didn’t do my devos because of Cedar Point. And look, because I went without you I was absolutely horrible. On the way up to Cedar Point I mocked redacted a bit I’m sure. But on Saturday I was the worst. I mocked redacted about everything, and what kind of friend does that. I made them feel really bad, and that’s just the worst thing I have done. Also, I love listening to that music. I loved it so much. But I do not want to love it. I want to hate it for you. And, I gave it up and by my not being strong in my decision to give up music affected redacted. They knew I gave it up and I just showed them how I wasn’t following through in the decision. Today, I was rude, nasty and horrible to redacted over the internet and work. I don’t want to be like this Lord. I feel horrible. I need your help so much. I can’t go without you, so please may your hand be with me!

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