15 Years Old
Wow, I just learned so much! Lord please help me not to forget these things that you just taught me while I’m writing them down. I was upstairs, typing my oil spills paper on the computer. Redacted was on the phone. I was typing madly and didn’t want to be disturbed, because I was already late for devotions. Redacted told me to tell redacted to get off the phone, and me being selfish, only called down to them. Then, I got on my way typing my story. When redacted got off the phone, they called me over. I was still typing so I didn’t want to come. They insisted, so reluctantly I went over to talk. “why don’t you [Redacted statement]?” they started off. No big deal, I have heard this before. At the moment it actually sounded like a good proposal. But I did what I always do and refused. Now, [redacted statement] seems like a good idea a lot of the time, but now I realize that God wants me here, and I need to be here. Redacted went on to explain their statement for the first time ever. They told me all about their life, not everything, but parts. [Redacted statement]. Funny how that works out that my paper in speech was going to be about this and I myself am dealing with hatred. [Redacted statement]. They see me going to church groups and acting superior to them and others by not seeing some movies and not listening to music. I show redacted hatred and how I treat them I don’t help out redacted and I complain when I do things for them. They see me becoming a snobby Christian like all the others who hurt them. I’m going to all of these things and not starting with the basics: Love. Redacted is hurt because I don’t show them the love I should. And they try to gain my love and affection. They do things for me, and do everything in their power to please, and the reason they get so upset is because I don’t show them love. “ The greatest single cause of Atheism in the world today is Christians, who acknowledge Jesus with their lips and walk out the door, and deny it by their lifestyle, that is what an unbelieving World simply finds unbelievable.” Redacted has been hurt by Christians. The Christians who say they love God, but don’t show them love. The same people who reject them because of their mistakes. They see this is not how Christians should act, and why would they want to be like them. They are better off not being a Christian than being like them. And what scares me to death is they see that in me. I am becoming one of those Christians who leads people away from God. How can people believe we are Christians if we deny it by our lifestyle. I cannot claim to be a Christian unless I start to show love to everyone, including redacted. If I don’t love I will be like redacted. Sure, redacted has hurt me, but it goes both ways. I am responsible. I never want to be like redacted. They have never been redacted to me. I want redacted to be in heaven with me and the best way I can bring them back to God is to love them. That’s where it all starts, and that’s why *TEC is such a success. because we love each other, people see God shine through us. Since God is love, when we show love, we show those hurting people God. Now, more than anything, redacted needs to feel love from me. If I don’t show redacted respect I may be responsible for their eternity in hell. I need to help them. They do so much for me, and I need them so much. I thank you so much for them, they show me where I need to change and I can learn from the mistakes they see in me. I’m so glad you gave me them. It’s awesome how much I can learn from them. Now, I need to talk to them. I need to tell them how I feel. I need to tell them I love them, how I don’t want to be like redacted, and how I always want them to show me my faults so I can come to you and never become the Christian that leads them away from you. Now, a song that fits perfectly in this whole thing is “ What Have We Become?” By DC Talk. It is exactly this, so remember it every time you hear it.
*TEC= Teens Encounter Christ, an unafflicted church group only for teenagers though led by adults.
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