Age: 14 years 10 months 19 days

Devotions

• every day from 9 to 9:30 spend in time devoted to God 
• during that time read at least six pages from the Bible. Read more if want 
• beginning of each week pick out a verse to memorize and have it memorized by the Monday of next week 
• when done reading the rest of time is spent in prayer with God 
• write down prayers in this book and when those prayers have been answered put a check by them and put a penny in the jar 

Things to do with redacted

•  check every Monday on redacted once a week to see how they’re doing with devos (and be their accountability partner)
•  the cross necklace that redacted gave me, whenever I see it I will be reminded of God and why I gave up bad music, therefore, if I am listening to a bad song and I see that necklace I have no excuse not to turn that song off and ask for forgiveness
•  get involved in every possible way you can with Calvary Christian Reformed 

remember redacted trusts you fully so commitment to self: never betray that trust by making stupid decisions 

get rid of all bad CDs and movies 

all parental advisory CDs gone 

any hit song about bad things 

movies with sex nudity gone 

Remember, you sin all the time just look at the list and it doesn’t matter how much anyone else sins, all that matters are your sins to God. My acting like I do drugs, fooling people, and leading them on is just as bad as doing drugs myself listening to music has consumed a lot of my time I could have spent living for God I do so many horrible things but I distract myself by saying others sin more and do worse things than me but really by acting this way I am worse than a prostitute. They know how much they sin and feel so ashamed when they come to know God. They don’t feel like they deserve his forgiveness and I should feel the same way too. I don’t deserve anything that God has given me and I want to spend my whole life living just for him in gratitude for his gift and he helps me along every step of the way guiding me and never loving me any less. I don’t deserve his love and I need to remember that every second of every day. 

Margin notes

• I pretended like I was a good Christian and I really wasn’t 
• I don’t stop people when they swear or do drugs
• I have been mean to so many people 
• I swore at my parents and lied to them about it 
• I wanted to run away 
• I was so rude and horrible when I was little 
• I actually thought about killing myself when I was really little 
• I lied to get out of going to school 
• also, you stole popcorn from Studio 28 
• you lie all the time 
• you cheated on your math test 
• you swore a lot 
• you’re mean to people

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